"When the character of a man is not clear to you, look at his friends." Japanese Proverb

13 days, 13 pages left to write.

You know...its 13 more days of high school left actually. I hated it for the first four years ...then I realized just a little bit ago. This was a chapter in my life about to seal itself from me for one final time....and I wasnt pleased with it...so i quickly turned around and looked at my past and fell in I love with it, I thanked Allah soo much, I can just sit there and cry out of gratefullness to what I have, its so sweet the life we have had no matter how bitter it once was or is...So, its kind of touching that I am finally leaving. everytime I leave school I remember one day I wont be young I will be the old, behind the cubicles and desks..those days of switching positions are coming soon.

I realize the good and especially the bad, I am grateful for. Not angry or indifferent. Rather grateful and reminiscent. All to glad it happened. No regret. I had that time, so Thank you Allah. I have not said it enough.

Sometimes, I think I am more in a rush to grow older, than grow since wisdom is affiliated with age. But we can defy that. Life happens fast, its up to us to slow it down--one of the senior quotes in the Yearbook. I can I dont need to hurry, no matter how bad some may want me to catch up. Its bliss I feel. And in no way do I want this, all this....to be glossed over. 13 days before the ink forever dries on these pages of my life. All I can do is fall in love with time, and plead to slow down...

Judgment....Is actually what I choose over otherwise

Well, your not alone, people mashallah they think I'm superhuman......and for the most part I pretend I can be...but we all fall or just bend a little sometimes. And its not easy to bend or straighten either. Peoples eyes are always ready to see what I do. I am actually watched at school, so at all times I'm on my best behavior ... In a big way I'm grateful for all the judgement because I'm going to get it sooner or later from Rab il 3allameen. I know people say, "dont judge, mind your own business" but to be frank...Let them, in their judgments I will find one of three things (or all three) wisdom, flaw in myself, or flaws in them. Each giving me an opportunity to learn or teach. It brings out the truth that lyes beneath the peoples tongues. If its bad and illogical I enjoy being kind to someone and giving them something they cant lose. wisdom. If I am bad, then I will admit to it, not fight it and correct my flaw....either way its healthy if you make a healthy perspective. If you make it something like making fun of yourself and hurting yourself and punishing yourself or others from criticism you may get. Thats a missed opportunity. Everything that happens to us is noor from Allah, look through his perceptive and you will realize how strong you are, and how beautiful every moment is when its filled with the chance of a good deed.

From the Judgment of others, you can see how they see the world. How they see you. They put their mind amongst yours then you given the advantage of perspective and can then delve into their world and values. When you see someone commenting on some news clip or the weather pay attention to their perspective you will gain so much. People are sensitive fragile creatures that need attention and would love to be figured out, and the ones that play it hard, well they just need it more ;} You can tell alot by the words people use, the way which they speak the gestures they make and the attitude towards something. Really to grow from every moment and person in your life, you have to be aware and taking notice like reading novels and taking notes, highlighting and rereading. Everyone is their own novel, trying to figure them out is you living a life other than your own without wasting time. There is a theme to everyone pick up on it, and its yours. That is golden.

Faith

"And God says "if you have just 1 drop of faith .. you will enter heaven" (no matter what religion)

When i first read that it blew me away cause i thought i was going to heaven ... haha then rethought it ...

Faith is hard .. even the strictest muslim/christian/whatever ... finds it trully hard to find 'Faith' .. faith is when you have 100% believe in your soul that whatever happens is good for you ... " - Tariq Bin Afif aka Eager Wisdom

"My point is God gives us all the answers .. its just up to us to act like a fool (lazy and ignorant) or find the answers for ourselves (seek and you shall find)" -Tariq Bin Afif..... Eager Wisdom

Comic Relief

"Maybe i taught you something new ? Maybe nothing ... maybe i made you smile like this -

A Jordanian Badu was told to that carrots are good for the eyes, so the next day he bought a bunch and stared at it waiting for the effect .

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: ) YOU SMiled ! .... : ) "-Eager Wisdom (aka anonymous) well now he is not. im exposing him.lol. Tariq Bin Afif, its only fair.

I did smile.

Rotating doors of Chance, or is it crisis?

Just for your own sake of calming your suspended heart :) this is for you….Allah will never, press you with a situation of crisis without knowing you are 100% sure you can make it through safe halal and closer to Allah. Don’t fail to see the courage you have mustered up, your strong in the name of your Lord you are strong. And this is a gift from Allah habeebnah Allah subhannah wa ta3alla to bring you closer to his shade on the day where there is no shade but his :} I believe in you and I don’t even know you, because Allah (swt) believes in you. What are my thoughts next to Allah’s exalted magnificent convictions? Nothing. You are challenge below the surface, deep down under. Albak. Where it hurts. Because that’s how strong you have shown Allah to be. That’s how strong Allah created you. It was written for you long ago your strengths.

The bigger the crisis the greater your love for Allah should multiply. It makes sense….Allah bestows hardship on his slaves for several reasons…..but there is an underlying reason. To offset the wrong deeds. So you might find someone sick constantly suffering from surgery to surgery almost dying but subhanallah living. All to what? To live out in pain suffer and Patience, you don’t know if your offsetting sins that will take place in 30 years….everything is happpenning……….for a reason. This patience and endurance and grieve and anxiety can be your real ticket to Allah just have the rememberance of Allah always being fed to your tongue and shared with others as well. It will make you crisis a revelation.

I have the soul of a beautiful old woman, with deep brown eyes :}

Doubt. Doubt it. Please.

{the context of this is a conversation I am having with one of the most intellectually curious and eager for knowledge person I have stumbled into, enjoy} {names are hidden for safety of partner two}

On my Part:

The Messenger of Allah (peace and blessings be upon him) said, “Overlook the slips of respected people.”

Hamdun al-Qassar, one of the great early Muslims, said, “If a friend among your friends errors, make seventy excuses for them. If your hearts are unable to do this, then know that the shortcoming is in your own selves.” [Imam Bayhaqi, Shu`ab al-Iman, 7.522]

Aya:
Allah Most High commanded us: “Believers! Leave much doubt, for most doubt is sinful.” [Qur'an, 49.12]

I don’t doubt you for a moment. Not a moment. My sister in the eyes of the Allah. In islam we are blood in a lifelong brotherhood…far more uniting than any gang or click can supply…do you not agree? :) I will find the kindness in your eyes, even if you intend not to show it, the better in your judgment even if you lack logic, and the greatness in your character if you ever fautler….doubt is one of the shaytan’s greatest weapons against humanity. Just think about it. And you will see why. I am unable to doubt you, because I refuse to :}

"If you ever do fall in love again ... question it .” -Tariq Bin Afif

If this was Miss. USA criteria...Imagine the world we lived......

Beauty Tips for Muslim Sisters

1- To beautify your eyes, lower your gaze towards strange men; this will make your eyes pure and shiny.
2- To beautify your face and make it shiny, keep doing wudu minimum five times a day.
3- To have attractive lips, always mention Allah and remember to speak the truth.
4- As for blush and rouge, “Modesty” (Haya) is one of the best brands and it can be found in any of the Islamic centers.
5- To remove impurities from your face and body, use a soap called “Astaghfaar” (seeking forgiveness of Allah) this soap will remove many bad deeds.
6- Now about your hair, if any of you has a problem of split ends, then I suggest “Islamic Hijab” which will protect your hair from damage.
7- As for jewelry, beautify your hands with humbleness and let your hands be generous and give charity to the poor.
8- To avoid heart disease, forgive people who hurt your feelings.
9- Your necklace should be a sign to pardon your fellow brothers and sisters.If you follow these advices given to you by the Creator, you will have a beautiful and attractive inner and outer appearance