this is the resting NOW.

Traffic in my eyes,
Agenda of work, to-do.
Will. My only demise,
Not happiness. who knew?

Supposedly its a holiday.
Pjs sweater and walls.
Intelligent mind lead astray.
"Happy Eid" noone calls.

Left here missing someone.
Worse. Who are they?
Sadly beautiful. Hardly fun.
Me. The grand delay.

In this sitting moment,
Trying for fun or study?
Time that should've meant,
Spending in this dying party.

Spending with this price.
Paying--In follwing time.
Rolling hours like dice.
In secret my guiltiest crime.

Mirror mirror closet wall,
You speak so direct.
My reflection, a doll,
Princess and tragic fall.

This gift. This failure.
What have i done!
ADD! Not the cure!
Charge: ME the one.

Only blame to blame,
Is always the suspect.
So im in strain.
Me, vitcim to protect.

Playing both rival roles.
Super woman. Personal adversary.
Catch-22. Reduced into holes.
Claiming happiness! In contrary.

Side-effects: this twinging headache.
Little efforts for focus.
More side-effects: psycosis. heartache.
Normal. something ill miss.

Overall rush of only-ness.
Poor mind forced lower.
Lower than reachable greatness.
Time outdoes. lower. lower.

this IS restting NOW.
Only to pay Later.
Then its aggrivatated to-be.
this will be the resting tomorrow.




Why? The only question I can't satisfy.